Family Reunion

We had a family reunion yesterday, only you were missing.
I am not sure what's worse...nobody talking about it or people asking about you.
I cannot pretend your not missing or pretend I don't care, they see the pain in my heart and the tears start to well up in my eyes when I talk about you, even now as I write they just flow.

My dream was about you last night. I was talking to some older women, we were in my Nana's house ( Papa's mom) and you happened to be listening in... You then confronted me and asked me if these were the women that I was talking to about you, I said yes they are, they were older women, probably to signify how wise they were. I do not remember what they were saying to me, but you seemed happy that it was them I was talking to and then looked at me and told me you wanted to come back home. I cannot describe the emotion I felt, it almost blew me over. As I think about it right now, my whole body gets warm. I have never been more ecstatic. I wanted to tell nana right away but I was, for some reason, trying to hide the way I felt, trying to keep it cool, but all I could think about was Nana and Papa and how very happy they would be. I could not run to a phone or find a way to tell them without startling you, I was so worried you would change your mind.

That is all I can remember now, it gets foggy after that and some other random dreams started.

I miss you so much Alyssa
I hope you are safe and happy

I love you

Mom