Summer is my favorite season of the year. Another one has come and is nearly over, due to the fact that school is starting in a few months.
I miss spending time with you Alyssa, I know you have had a great summer. I saw a few glimpses of you from the PALI DVD's Trent brought home. You are beautiful! I miss you so much. I hope you know how proud I am of you, you are becoming such a beautiful young woman, I hope one day I get to know you, I hope its soon, I pray that it's very soon. I've gone through the last few years and look back and wonder how I have gotten through it. It's as though I've just been in a Daze. The only explanation I have, as to how I have gotten through it, is through the Grace and mercy of Jesus. His promise that our hard times in this life time are not permanent, and they are for a reason. I often wonder what that reason is, I question him, I question me. We all blame ourselves for this situation. I realize that this is happening and its real but I cannot believe for a minute, that this is permanent.
Have a wonderful summer Alyssa, I hope to hear from you soon, real soon!
xoxoxo
Your MOM
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- “Any attempt at alienating the children from the other parent should be seen as a direct and willful violation of one of the prime duties of parenthood” - J. Michael Bone and Michael R. Walsh, authors of “Parental Alienation Syndrome: How to Detect It and What to Do About It” -http://www.divorcesource.com. ---I am a mom who has survived Parental Alienation, It lasted 10 years. During those years of hopelessness, I started this blog to talk and share my feelings with my daughter. This was the only way for me to be heard, I shared my struggle and feelings. It helped me to heal, slowly. But more than that; it's become a platform for me, as I learn more about this epidemic, to inspire someone who might also be dealing with it. I hope my testimony and experience will help others survive when they feel like giving up. Don't give up, keep fighting and give it to God. It is the only thing that keeps me moving forward each day.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Sunday, July 3, 2011
I miss you
Alyssa
Today is the Sunday before 4th of July and I'm cleaning windows
I step into your room to get those window's cleaned
I often wonder how you would like the room, it has a great view of our pool
it has your surfer girl poster and its a beach themed room
I love it in there. I go in there daily to get dressed, as I use that closet for my clothes.
I think about how things would be if you were living in that room
I miss you so much
I just wanted to get these thoughts down right now. I think of you everyday, please don't think that a day goes by where I dont think of you in one way or another.
I don't blog everyday because it makes me sad, but I do it when I want to feel close to you and let you know how I am feeling. Not to say that is not everyday but other days it more than I can bear so I resort to the Diary.
I love you so much and I miss you so much it hurts my heart to let these feelings come to surface
I hope you come home soon, I cannot wait until that day
I dream of it often. I pray for it always and I am looking forward to the day when I can hug you again and tell you I am sorry and that no matter what's happened I never have and never will stop loving you.
I hope you are having fun at Pali and that your summer is wonderful.
Until my next blog.
xoxoxoxoxox
Your Mom
Today is the Sunday before 4th of July and I'm cleaning windows
I step into your room to get those window's cleaned
I often wonder how you would like the room, it has a great view of our pool
it has your surfer girl poster and its a beach themed room
I love it in there. I go in there daily to get dressed, as I use that closet for my clothes.
I think about how things would be if you were living in that room
I miss you so much
I just wanted to get these thoughts down right now. I think of you everyday, please don't think that a day goes by where I dont think of you in one way or another.
I don't blog everyday because it makes me sad, but I do it when I want to feel close to you and let you know how I am feeling. Not to say that is not everyday but other days it more than I can bear so I resort to the Diary.
I love you so much and I miss you so much it hurts my heart to let these feelings come to surface
I hope you come home soon, I cannot wait until that day
I dream of it often. I pray for it always and I am looking forward to the day when I can hug you again and tell you I am sorry and that no matter what's happened I never have and never will stop loving you.
I hope you are having fun at Pali and that your summer is wonderful.
Until my next blog.
xoxoxoxoxox
Your Mom
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