I thought I taught you how to respect adults, especially when those adults are your parents.
I guess the 12 years I had the honor of raising you was all for nothing. The parents you have now, let you think it's ok to be so rude and disrespectful to your own mother? I hope one day you will be appalled at your words and behavior. I am so sad right now at the lack of love or emotion your email to me had. I guess I need to stop setting myself up for this.
About Me
- Renée Beck
- United States
- “Any attempt at alienating the children from the other parent should be seen as a direct and willful violation of one of the prime duties of parenthood” - J. Michael Bone and Michael R. Walsh, authors of “Parental Alienation Syndrome: How to Detect It and What to Do About It” -http://www.divorcesource.com. ---I am a mom who has survived Parental Alienation, It lasted 10 years. During those years of hopelessness, I started this blog to talk and share my feelings with my daughter. This was the only way for me to be heard, I shared my struggle and feelings. It helped me to heal, slowly. But more than that; it's become a platform for me, as I learn more about this epidemic, to inspire someone who might also be dealing with it. I hope my testimony and experience will help others survive when they feel like giving up. Don't give up, keep fighting and give it to God. It is the only thing that keeps me moving forward each day.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
2011
2010 was so hard without you and now we are starting another year. Another year missed. I sometimes think that I don't know how I am going to get through each day let alone another year with out any contact from you or with you.
So I try to remain hopeful in that it won't be another year, rather just take it day by day. I want you to know that not a day goes by without a thought of you. It could be another teenage girl walking in the neighborhood with her friends, or a teenage girl with her mom by the pool, or looking at Allie's formal dance photos on Facebok, those things are so bittersweet to me, I long to see you. I ask God to bring you to me in my dreams, and he does. Not all the time but when he does, I wake up sad, but also happy, because it reminds me that what I am dreaming about is you and that I am still positive you will come back and we will have a relationship. This blog started out for me to write down my thoughts about you it then turned into a blog to you, letters to you. I know the posts are far and few between, but that doesn't mean you were not thought about. It takes a lot of strength for me to open this page and pour out my feelings to you. It hurts.I try not to go back and read the other entries it only makes my longing for you that much worse. This morning I went into your room I can't wait till you come to see it, It's your room and I love it. I love you Alyssa Marie. I can't wait to see you again.
Mom
So I try to remain hopeful in that it won't be another year, rather just take it day by day. I want you to know that not a day goes by without a thought of you. It could be another teenage girl walking in the neighborhood with her friends, or a teenage girl with her mom by the pool, or looking at Allie's formal dance photos on Facebok, those things are so bittersweet to me, I long to see you. I ask God to bring you to me in my dreams, and he does. Not all the time but when he does, I wake up sad, but also happy, because it reminds me that what I am dreaming about is you and that I am still positive you will come back and we will have a relationship. This blog started out for me to write down my thoughts about you it then turned into a blog to you, letters to you. I know the posts are far and few between, but that doesn't mean you were not thought about. It takes a lot of strength for me to open this page and pour out my feelings to you. It hurts.I try not to go back and read the other entries it only makes my longing for you that much worse. This morning I went into your room I can't wait till you come to see it, It's your room and I love it. I love you Alyssa Marie. I can't wait to see you again.
Mom
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